What is this feeling that i had inside my chest.
I have no word to descripe that feeling but
i always felt when u are around me.

Every night i can feel the warmness feeling in my heart.
like all the problem inside my heart had fade away
by the kindness you gave to me.

Life is about ups and down and it is the same for love.
There is no easy road to success but we will try our best to make it right

i'm back....lol sorry did not update my blog i was to busy at school forgot to update for sooooo long
now i have done what need to be done..and now is time to party hahaha..will u date some pic later

dear reader

do you guy get a feeling that u really miss someone but didn't it is too late
well it happen to me

ok i fall in love with this girl (my ex school mate will know)
at first im not that close to her
ever since that day happen i began to fall in love with her
i dono y but it happen..

it happen like this
we were having our cca dan i need to talk some thing at the room
than i ask my fren to follow me
if i could remember it was 3 girl one of them was her
so we when to the room and take some staff than my 2 fren lock me and her in the room
and i was like wth..

we stay in the room for quite sometime..
and after that day i began to msg her..
talk to her on the phone and i feel very happen with her
and u guy know what will happen next.

so than we were together
but at first she not into it so i did not feel that she love me or what so ever i
but i try my best to make her love me..
at first it was hard but i try

and one day happen when we had a fight..
i was so angry and i dono y..
i never tot that it is hard to be in a r/s
so on that day i off my phone so that she cant call me of msg me..
when that time i miss her alot and hope that she will love me

1 week later she call me and ask to meet
and the rest i don remember..

we been together for like 11 mth+ and i love her so much
dan we broke up is because of someone and i don wish to talk about him

atfer that day my heart was full of pain
and i say to myself that i will never go back with her
but from the bottom of my heart i really wan her back
and i did not show it to her because for what she did really hurt me
and i know i also hurt her too...

and i know that she keep asking me to be with her but i say no..
i say no is not because i don wan is because u are having N level..and i know what happen to me
when i did my N level when i always been meeting u..i never did my best and i don wan her to be like me
and i know that she wan to go sec 5 and she always say i can't make to sec 5 but u see now she is in sec 5
and before she take her N level i make a promise a promise that only make to her no one other dan her

and i keep the promise till now..waiting for her
and every day every hour every min and sec i miss her alot..

i really do miss u

Labels: missing u

I miss you when something really good happens, because you are the one I want to share it with. I miss you when something is troubling me, because you are the one who understands me so well. I miss you when I laugh and cry because i know that you are the one that makes my laughter grow and my tears disappear. I miss you all the time, but I miss you most when i lay awake at night and think of all the wonderful times we spent with eachother;for those were some of the best times of my life.

As I look back on all that’s happened..growing up, growing together, changing you, changing me there were times when we dreamed together, when we laughed and cried together. As I look back on those days, I realize how much I truly miss you and how much I truly love you. The past may be gone forever..and whatever the future holds, our todays make the memories of tomorrow. So, my lifetime baby, it is with all my heart that I send you my love, hoping that you’ll always carry my smile with you, for all we have meant to each other and for whatever the future may hold.

I try to talk to you, but I don’t know what to say. I am afraid you don’t want me to say anything. So I don’t. But inside of me there are words waiting to come out.And tell you how I feel-like how I miss you. And how I love you despite my broken heart.And how I need you in my life. And especially how much I want you.But those words may forver stay in my heart-locked inside.Sometimes I wonder if there are words locked inside you too… but I’ll never know.


" BY ZULHILMI
6/5/09

Labels: the time that i say "i love u"